Seems that I always get blog ideas or just really deep thoughts when I’m laying in bed at three AM and can’t sleep. I always think “I should write this all down” what I want to do is just be in my own head and maybe fall asleep and what I actually do is right down tons of fragments. This method has been holding me over until the next day for as long as I can remember even if I don’t end up writing about it, at very least I have deep conversations with myself in the shower. Don’t act like you never have.
Well my reason for bringing this personal quirk up is that this week has been the exception. If it isn’t one thing, it’s another. On top of being in a new country and all the stress that comes with, I am also terribly sick. If you don’t believe me, ask my wonderful husband how putting up with me has been. He’s too kind to tell the truth but we both know it’s been awful, especially because I’m especially moody when I’m sick. So, because of this added stress I especially didn’t want to get up and write as I’m laying awake, inevitably due to time change and just my natural disposition to sleep, so I did as I always do and I wrote down several fragments. This time none of them make sense. I know my head was in the “deep sense of adaption to change” because I remember being overwhelmed with emotion but what led me to write
But the opposite”
I probably will never know or remember.
My best guess is I was relating to Nemo being taken out of the only home he has ever known (the ocean) to be put in a tank. I can relate having never left the country to living out of the country, it’s definitely a culture shock. That’s almost unfair to say though, because I feel that “culture shock” almost always has negative connotation and I don’t feel negative about it all. I’ve been told that I will after a while, adjusting isn’t exactly easy but I’m confident as of now, a week later.
The hardest part is being so codependent on other people. Here you don’t have a choice at first. You can’t legally drive here (until you pass the correct tests and file the right paperwork, which takes time, something you don’t have if you don’t love living in a hotel) what is a total handicap as to what happens next- finding a place to live, possibly shopping for a car, getting a phone ect. (I still don’t have a phone, God bless free wifi).
Soon Kyle will at least have his USAEUR which is a pretty much a German drivers license. Then we will be able to rent or buy a car or even both because it’s hard to do your research buying a car without seeing them in person. Most importantly we can then move into our house which we will have to have figured out by then. Honestly we should’ve figured that out yesterday, but I am still so torn.
Living in a hotel is not all its cracked up to be, contrary to The Suite Life of Zach and Cody, it is not all fun and games. I guess my expectations were a little too high considering this is a small farm town in Germany, not Boston, and this is a small Air Force Inn, not the Tipton Hotel. We do not have a kitchen which makes eating healthy especially difficult, we are limited to microwave meals and sandwiches. The microwave, bedroom, desk that is over flown with suitcases, the closet and the living room is all squished together in one little area and I am stir crazy. Thankfully we have been able to get out some to house hunt, in process and see some movies at the on base theatre.
As far as finding a place to live, we have all the thanks to give to my new friend Sommer. She is the only reason we have been able to tour places off base and might I say we have had a lot of fun doing it. My only regret is not getting everything on video and submitting it into House Hunter International because I have a new respect for the couples who can’t agree on whats important because Kyle and I are in the same boat.
We did find the perfect house but it had awful to no internet service and not to sound too first world but it has to be a priority since we are counting on it to communicate back to the states. Some food for thought, next time your complaining about how bad your signal is for a short period of time, keep in mind there are entire communities who have never used internet or know what it is.
Honestly, I am setting my expectations too high again because I am holding out to find my perfect Stars Hallow home. If you know what I am talking about, I have a deep sense of respect and all out love for you. It actually seems like it might be possible in its own way, have you there won’t be a designated Taylor Doose or Luke Danes, but I can work with that. For those of you still playing catch up, I am heavily referring to Gilmore Girls.
All or at least most of the villages within driving distance are under 1,500 people in population. The “cities” here are about 13,000 to 17,000 people, which is still less than half the size of the small town I’m from. Most of the villages are REALLY cute. I keep finding myself referring to them as “Beauty and the Beast” or “Cinderella” towns. You know the part in the beginnings where they are at the bakery buying bread and gathering produce? Well, thats exactly what its like.
We have seen six homes or apartments so far and even though the perfect one (House A) wasn’t perfect and did have a deal breaker (internet) we have two strong contenders. We almost want to hold out to find the perfect compromise so we are going to see a couple more today, whether or not we find a perfect house, we still need to make a decision by the end of the day so we don’t lose the strong contenders just because we are being picky. At that point we will just have to decide whats most important to both of us. If I could pick House A and put it in the location and internet service signal of House B with the view of House C the decision would’ve been made days ago, unfortunately, like any house hunter will know, it just doesn’t work like that.
I hope you can follow all my ramblings, I’m still getting used to the time change, we are nine hours ahead of Arizona and seven ahead of Texas. So, friends, family and online friends I haven’t met, for the most part as y’all are going to bed, Im waking up. When you are waking up, I’m wrapping up my day. When you are getting out of school and off work, I’m going to bed. Pretty much whatever your doing, Im doing the counter part or opposite. So, please be patient with me as I try my best to keep in contact with all of you.